Sunday, December 2, 2012

7 Years

7 years ago today, my big brother Ben died on his LDS mission in Argentina. It's been a long 7 years day by day but as I look back, it seems to have gone so quickly. I have been having a particularly hard time this year because I'm pregnant and this little one will never have the chance to meet his uncle Ben (or Ethan, my other brother who's also passed away).

Brig and I have thought a lot about what we ought to name this boy and Benjamin just seems to be the one. I didn't know at first if I would be happy every time I said it or sad, but as I have thought about it more and more, I think it will be an honor to my brother and my boy. I can't wait to have a Ben of my own and tell him about his Marine, ice-cream loving, mission-serving uncle. I want our Ben to know Big Ben well, to recognize him when he sees him. It will certainly make for a sweet reunion.

I have no pictures of Ben on my computer but I will remedy that and get one up here, for memory's sake. I love him and miss him more than ever today, but I have a lot of hope for my Little Ben who is on his way.

9 comments:

Jen said...

I love that u r naming you little guy after his uncle.

LOVE IT :)

erica[goodjobmomma] said...

that is the sweetest thing ever. sweet little baby benjamin. :)

Jami Jensen said...

Love this!!! And cannot believe it's been 7 years. I can only imagine all the awesomeness he has accomplished up there in 7 years! ;)

Mike and Katie said...

I thought about Ben all day yesterday. He is never far from my thoughts and he will always remain a huge part of my life. The fact that you are naming your little one after him I think is one of the greatest honors to his memory you could offer. So, so sweet. Love you Em!

The Dark Family said...

Brought me to tears. I love that he will have a namesake! So precious!

Jennie Newbold said...

Perfect name. I love you Em! I adore that you'll honor Ben by naming you baby boy Ben. Thought about your sweet family a lot this week.

Sam and Leslie said...

Such a sweet and perfect way to pay homage to Ben... I think about you and your family especially this time of year. You are such an example to me, Em! Love you!

The Milliron Family said...

I'm sorry Emily. Losing loved ones REALLY sucks. On December 13th, it will be 4 years since my Dad died. And on January 9th, it will be 4 years since our little girl was born and died. So I understand the sadness you have knowing your son won't know his Uncle in this life. I get teary eyed every time I think about Douglas forgetting who my Dad is, Josh not knowing who my Dad is at all and then this next baby not knowing who he is either. Same with our little girl - her brothers ( and possible sister : ) ) won't know who she is in this life. Douglas remembers her but sadly he doesn't have happy memories of her. But here's where OUR RESPONSIBILITY IS : we are responsible to keep their memories alive and fresh ! Make a book or a CD with pictures of your brother and show it to your children once a year. My Father in Law does that because his Mother passed away when my Husband and his siblings were very young. Hugs to you !

onehm said...

I love the name. Just perfect.
And we really missed seeing you last night. Love you!