Today is the 4-year anniversary of Ben's death. I miss him so much and I just wanted to take this time to honor him and recognize him. He is the best brother I could ever ask for. He blessed my life in every way and since his death, he continues to do the same.
It's interesting how the pain never goes away. I thought for sure by now that it would have eased up a bit but it hasn't. There are always things that remind me of him, especially music. And red Jeep Wranglers. And Marine Corp stickers.
But I know where he is and that he is with Ethan right now and looking down wanting us to be happy. And that's what I try to do everyday. Because he is where he is, he gives me a goal to get there and to be with him and the rest of my family forever and ever. I just hope I can be good enough to live with him someday.