Thursday, May 6, 2010

whats round and small and looks like swiss cheese?

I am officially an Ovarian Cyster... If this is TMI for you already, best not read on.

So, after much and much pain in the lower left pelvic region (not pleasant!), and everyone from my mother to my relief society president telling me to go to the doctor, I go. And after an internal ultrasound-yes, it's as bad as it sounds- the Doc finds cysts on the ovaries. Lots and lots of cysts. Swiss cheese style. AKA Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome.

Anyway, none were ruptured, so that's not what the pain is from, says Doctor. He doesn't know what the pain is from and neither do I! But I want to. Maybe someday I will.

I am not sure what to think about all this news. I don't want pity, but then again I don't really know how bad it can be. I'm thinking not that bad unless one of them explodes in my insides... am I right? However, it does have some fertility consequences. Not that we want to have a kid now or in the near future, but someday that day will come. But will it? I dunno?

If anyone knows my family, you know there were 6 of us. You might be thinking "Yay! Lots of grandbabies for the granparents!" Not so; only two of us can have kiddos. And one of those two had her tubes tied (not me). Therefore, there will be minimal grandbabies from that child. So who's it up to to provide the granchildren?? Me. But what now? What if that's not in the plans for me?

Sorry to rant. Rant over.


The Dark Family said...

Aw Emily. I love you honey and I'm so sorry that you're in pain. I know you live right by your mommy and have a FANTASTiC husband, but if there is ANYTHiNG I can do, seriously give me a text and/or call. I'm seriously free all the time. I will pray for you and keep you in my thoughts. I hope everything gets better. Here's a little story for you that was in an e-mail I received from my mommy-in-law today:

Sometimes we wonder, 'What did I do to deserve this?' or 'Why did God have to do this to me?' Here is a wonderful explanation! A daughter is telling her Mother how everything is going wrong, she's failing algebra, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away.
Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter says, 'Absolutely Mom, I love your cake.'
'Here, have some cooking oil,' her Mother offers.
'Yuck' says her daughter.
'How about a couple raw eggs?' 'Gross, Mom!'
'Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?'
'Mom, those are all yucky!'
To which the mother replies: 'Yes , all those things seem bad all by themselves. But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake! '
God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when He puts these things all in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful!

I know that doesn't exactly pertain to you, but I felt the need to share it with you. random. sorry.

I love you though! :D

Emily Sue said...

oh my gosh!!! i love you so much. i'll be praying for you!!!

Jen said...

I Love you and Heavenly Father will be sending you children some day in some way.


The Jenkins said...

i'm sorry you're having to deal with this. i hope that the doctor will have a solution to at least take pain away. you and brig are amazing and i know that things will work out, however that may be. :)

Britney Jean said...

Aw Em...I'm sorry! I hope they figure out where the pain is coming from soon.

Don't stress about it girl. Everything happens for a reason, and things will work out as they are meant to. Your family seriously amazes me. You are all so strong. YOU amaze me. You always have. I love you girl and my prayers are with you! :)

Shawnda and Nathan Mills said...

I Love you Em! I have come to realize that life is not always fair. Its been a harsh reality for me lately. Im sorry you have to deal with this. But know that we love you and hope everything gets better.

lj said...

Hey Emily, I just found your blog! I'm sorry you have to go through all this. I'm just a couple of houses down if you ever need anything.


ChristineMarie said...

I'm sorry, love!!
You'll be the best mom whenever it does happen, though. And I'm sure it will happen exactly the right way.
I love you!

Melissa K said...

hey EM, saw your mom in the temple yesterday! so fun! And I have POS too! we' ve been through lots of tests in the last month but I'm still really positive about it! You are gonna have the cutest, sweetest little kids!!
Oh and please tell me more about Atley getting her tubes tied!! WHAT?

Our Ohana said...

Guess What Em?! I have PCOS too...and honestly - when it comes to having lil babies - it sucks. honestly. It took us TWO years and LOTS of drugs to finally get pregnant but, if it's something you want ... it's so worth it and thankfully PCOS is one of the least debilitating "diseases" of infertility (if that made sense. lol)and there are LOTS of drugs and options out there for you depending on how severe yours is.

Lemme know if you ever wanna chat about it. done LOTS of research in my days!